- 8 degrees below

Oak Tree, Snowstorm, Yosemite National Park, California, 1948
Photograph by Ansel Adams


I love Ansel Adams. I do not know what it is about his photographs but I feel calm when I look at them. I love black and white photos as well. And most people that know me, know I have a weird thing for trees. I really don't know what it is about them but trees make me happy. I take pictures of them all the time. There is something about how they branch out and grow wild that I love.

You want to know something that does not make me happy? Fucking -8 degree temperatures with the wind chill. Excuse my potty mouth, but I am pretty amazed that I have kept it tame on this blog. (My favorite thing someone once told me about myself is that I could offend a sailor with my mouth) But for real... it is FUCKING cold. I am bundled up like no one's business. I have leggings, leg warmers, knee socks, my pants, a long sleeve shirt, a thick sweater, my coat, gloves, hat and scarf on and all I want is my blanket, River and the dogs. I want to hibernate. That would be lovely. And drink hot chocolate all day long. And catch up on all the movies that I have been meaning to watch. Sigh.

Let it Snow!

Taken on my very cold and snowy walk to the light rail station yesterday. As the snow came down on a slant in my face. All this snow has put me in a festive mood... well almost. I enjoyed watching my puppy experience his first snow, running around and going crazy. He loves this weather... just goes to prove that I really do believe he is part mountain dog. It was a lovely evening to stay home, read, write, listen to music and drink hot chocolate with vanilla marshmallows... and that's exactly what I did. River had to work but I enjoyed the quiet LOL.


These are my brats... they get tired after all the excitement. What a life. That is Trooper, my beagle, farther from the front and Max, my almost 10 month old puppy mutt in your face. I love them... LOVE them. My little family is complete now that Max has joined us. Even if he does follow me EVERYWHERE, like a little canine train. And knocks everything over because he does not realize that his tail is attached to his ass... which he continues to chase and bite like an idiot. Sigh... they are my <3.

I feel like I am having a skinny day today. Which is quite nice if I do say so myself. Now I return to work. More later

Oh... the weather outside is frightful...

Well, not so much today but you get the point. A lovely photo from outside Cassie's house the other night with a bit of snow on it. Tis the season once again, for weather advisories, storm watches, cleaning my car off and inches upon inches of white powder that turns into brown slush. Why do I still live here? OH that's right, we are in a recession and I cannot afford to move! Almost forgot, til I look at the bank statement. HaHa.

It has been quite some time since I was last here. I have been busy. River and I finally had our housewarming party and it was a blast. Lots of cheese, wine, chips, rockband and good friends. Lots of laughter, warmth, bad singing and love! It was a perfect evening.

I still need to learn to breathe, or maybe I just really need to get into some good therapy. The blue pills only do so much when they are on their own.

Went to the mall the other night. I believe that some stores, or all stores, for that matter need to hire someone to just be honest with people. I would take that job... I would make people cry but still. There was an older gentleman at one of the stores I was wandering around in. Yes I know that I do not have the greatest fashion sense, nor am I that kind of girl that cares, but I know what looks right on people. I am not blind nor stupid. I digress- back to the man: He was trying on something that looked like a bomber jacket. He was obviously going through a mid-life thing, as evidenced by his tight jeans and "hip" shirt. He was in this bomber jacket and I just kind of wanted to put my hand on his shoulder and let him have it. Or actually just tell him to put it back cus it would never work in the end for him. There will be no young lady parts all over him in that outfit - well if he whips out cash money then maybe. But in that outfit-no sirree bob. I think this is a service all stores should provide - like when the fat girls buy clothes that are 2 sizes too small, you know in situations like that. Enough of this topic LOL... I'm going to hell.

And I'm off like a prom dress...

Another day...

another dollar. Or so they tell me. Anyways... had a good night last night. Hung out and ate with Cassie at my old restaurant. Good times. The food is always freaking delicious and the company was fantastic, thank you Cassie, Siouxsie and Brian. Love these folks. I had a delicious anjou pear salad and pumpkin tortellini, melts in your mouth I tell you! Cassie had the eggplant bruschetta and seared sea scallops with creamed corn and oranges. Yummy stuff. Then I hung out with a friend for a few hours. That was fun times. It's been a long time since I have laughed so hard for so long with another person. I find it to be awesome that I can connect with someone on a level like that.

In other things, vegetarianism is going as well as can be I guess. I had a piece of turkey on Thanksgiving, just had to. And I had some chicken nuggets in a moment of starvation. But other than that it has been all veggie! I really need to read some of my books on being veg the healthy way, but my reading list is quite long right now. And I have been sucked into the 4th book of the Twilight series. Damn books, not even that great but I just can't put them down.

Facebook has connected me with some people I haven't heard from in years, very interesting talking to certain people. I think it's the little blue pills, cus normally I have no desire to talk to anyone ever. But the blue pills make me happy, well neutral, I don't really know happy. Happy is a relative term in my life. Like meeting Dave Navarro that was a happy time (that was a sexy, good happy time) but most everything else in life is just there. I am not one to find the silver lining in things, but recently I have been the one passing on the optimism. I can never stop taking these pills. NEVER.

I am trying to find online courses or interesting writing projects. I would like to pick up my writing again. I bought another journal the other day *holds out hand so Cassie can smack it again* and have been writing in it. I have a thing for journals. Sometimes they just speak to me and I have to own them... but most of the time I never use them! I'm retarded. But I saw a new one at Barnes and just had to have it. So I have been using it and it is going well so far. But that is just all the personal stuff that I don't want the world to know about. I want something to test my ability, make me have to think and come up with something creatively. I haven't written in a very long time. I start and stop constantly and never go back.... Hmmmm... must find something.

Alright... time for me to leave work and head home. Much to do this evening. And a killer headache, we had the carpet cleaned at the office this morning and the smell of the chemicals is hurting my head immensely. Good night blog world.

December...

is upon us, already. I cannot believe how fast the time has flown this year. Seems crazy, but every year goes faster. The holiday was a good time. The in-laws have officially moved to Florida, sad but at the same time exciting. For the first time in 5 years, River and I live together. None of his family, in an apartment to ourselves and the pups. It has been fantastic so far. We finished the kitchen on Friday, it looks good. Functional and much larger without all the crap in the way. The whole apartment is coming along nicely. It will serve its purpose. And when the weather gets warmer, I will make the backyard wonderful too!

So... my goal this week is to stay away from the phone. I will not call or text this person, if they want to talk to me then they can get in touch with me. I must follow through. And I must write and write a lot because then my mind will be clear of all the crap that is currently running through it. And hopefully I will be able to sleep without medical intervention. Omg, I cannot wait to take some sleep medication this evening. At like 8pm LOL. I really just want to sleep. Think I will go home and take a nap during my break as well. Gotta pick up the happy blue pills today. Which I do believe are working quite nicely. I haven't had a "dark" day in awhile. And what would usually push me over the edge has not affected me as much.

I wish I had more interesting things to talk about but I do not. Now I must return to work.