Whoa

I have not been here in AGES!!! I have been super busy. Now I shall catch up. That is all. Good day.

working on a mystery...

not really i just like that lyric. anyways... not much going on in life. I have become a BAND-aid. Not a groupie, but a band-aid. I just support, I don't spread my legs. LOL. Man I love boys in bands.

Keeping busy with work, the doc and I are both getting over being wicked sick for the last week and a half. I love working for a chiropractor. As soon as she adjusts my neck, my nose just drains and I can breathe again. It is wonderful stuff.

Working on a cool blog post that I have added myself to. Back to work!

25 random things....

1. I have no filter - if I'm thinking it, it will probably makes its way out of my mouth. I make no apologies for it.

2. I am a cutter, I haven't cut myself in 6 years, but just like alcoholics I take it one day at a time. I am proud of my scars, they show me how far I have come.

3. I'm allergic to the sun -no really- it has been confirmed by a doctor.

4. I have never been on a first date.

5. My obsession with Dave Navarro is all encompassing. I write his birthday in my planner, all my online names have to do with him (even my xbox gamertag), etc. I have the man's autograph tattooed to my arm for fuck's sake. I don't understand why I love him but for the last 15 years he is the epitome of what a beautiful man should be. *hangs head*

6. I have been engaged for the last 2.5 years and only recently realized I never want to get married. EVER.

7. I like to kiss girls, some people have called me a lesbian, a dyke, confused, bisexual, etc. I don't use labels, I define it as free-spirited. I am not adverse to loving a woman in all the ways possible - might as well seeing as I think about it enough.

8. I despise most of my family. I have a hard time believing people when they say they love me or compliment me. I know it stems from the utter rejection by my mother and numerous members of my family. I don't like myself, thank you mom.

9. I finally became a vegetarian - but bacon still makes me weak in the knees. Oh and corndogs too.

10. I make wicked good brownies, you will go into a sugar coma after eating them, but shit they are good. (Maybe the words brownie and shit should not be used in the same sentence.)

11. I have perfected the art of sarcasm, PERFECTED IT.

12. I have a very close knit group of friends, they are my true family. I am fiercely protective of them and I WILL walk to the ends of the earth for them.

13. However, I cut people out of my life. I don't like drama and I don't like headaches. Once you are gone from my life, you are GONE. I don't go back nor have I ever regretted these choices. I may not like myself, but I have too much self-respect for bullshit.

14. I have had a crush on the same boy since I was 12. And 14 years later I still find him to be amazing and he frightens me more today than he did then. But I hope to actually be his friend.

15. I am a fruit snob - I will not eat fruit that is not in season.

16. I name everything. My car is named Jamison, my computer is named Dottie Gale, my first cell phone was named Englebert. I name EVERYTHING.

17. I don't say the word dog and various other words because my southern accent slips out even after 21 years living in the North and my friends laugh at me. HAHA.

18. I believe I have a guardian angel because i should have died twice.

19. I have broken my nose 6 times - it has never had to be reset but it does have a slight curve.

20. The doctors have not confirmed it (because I have no desire to have the surgery yet) but I believe in my bones and whole-heartedly that I will not be able to conceive children. I am coming to terms with it because I will get to be the coolest aunt ever.

21. My heart was broken 6 years and almost 2 months ago. It has never healed.

22. I can't swim but water makes me feel at peace as do trees.

23. A Boy Named Goo is my favorite album. It kept me from killing myself, literally. Along with So Much for the Afterglow. ("Fucking up takes practice, I feel I'm well-rehearsed" is the mantra to my life)

24. I can go days without looking in a mirror - I am not fond of myself. Let me repeat that.

25. I talk in different accents, like all the time. I think they are my multiple personalities.

That's it, enjoy folks. If you have questions or comments - let me have them. Ehhhhh....