Admissions...

So, last night, as I was watching 90210... yeah I said it 90210. Judge me, you can't be a harsher critic than I am to myself. LOL. This show is awful, pure garbage. Ridiculously bad and yet I will not/cannot stop watching it. My friend and I text message each other back and forth during the whole thing about how unrealistic and stupid and bad the show is and yet every week at 8pm we are in front of the tv watching. And then last night we come to the point where we are about to give it up and the previews come on and we're sucked back in. It's a train wreck and I need to watch. I need more Shannen Doherty and Jennie Garth and where the hell did Nat go? The Peach Pit was in one episode. I really need Beverly Hills 90210, 10 years later. For reals.

And then I fire up the DVR, cus I know I have stuff on there and the tv is really the only thing left in my apartment for me to keep my attention. All my books are packed. So there is My Own Worst Enemy. Interesting concept for a show, but it's pretty bad. I have found myself drifting to other thoughts when that show is on... but I watch it for one reason and one reason only. CHRISTIAN SLATER. If you don't know where "greetings and salutations" comes from, it is from Heathers. The movie with CHRISTIAN SLATER. I am a die hard Slater fan. Love the man, he can do no wrong in my eyes. And is it just me or does he not age? So yeah the show... I'm glad he is back in the spotlight a little bit, but the show needs some work. And like 90210, I will watch until both shows are cancelled.

Now a good show, Criminal Minds, that show does not disappoint. Neither does Law and Order SVU or Ugly Betty. I like tv, seems I'm a bit addicted.

Tonight is the first night in the new apartment!!! Woot!

What a weekend...

“My sorrow, when she's here with me, thinks these dark days of autumn rain are beautiful as days can be; she loves the bare, the withered tree; she walks the sodden pasture lane.” Robert Frost

This has been a hell of a weekend. I was off from work - the doctor had a bachelorette party weekend in Las Vegas. So Friday I went to Pacific College, which I have to say I was impressed with. And such an easy commute especially from my new apartment, I love my car but only spending money on gas to get to grampa's will be awesome! Public transpo here I come. Anyways back to the school, the program is one of the only ones outside of California that meets the standards for the Cali Board Exams... which means when I'm done with the program = I can work in Cali!!!! Oh thank something, for I love the thought of being able to go to Cali, I guess it helps that this school has a campus in San Diego, which at any point I can actually transfer to. Friday night was more packing and honestly, I can't remember what the hell I did that night... wow I feel old right now. Oh wait, maybe there was some moving of boxes... o yes there was!

Saturday-everything was on rain delay. River started his new job that morning and by the time he got home it was raining. So moving had to be put off. It became a super lazy day... no packing or anything, just enjoying each other's company. And he shared his head cold... so we were both miserable anyways LOL.

Sunday - yard sale that kind of sucked. And we moved most of the furniture. All we have left in the apartment is the big tv and the stand for it, the bookcase and a ton of small stuff. I thought the apartment was going to look super crowded once we moved in but everything seems to fit perfectly. The kitchen is a mess cus that is where we are storing everything for now until we can unpack stuff. Slowly but surely we will be moved in by tomorrow... tomorrow night being the night the tv moves and I believe River and I will be staying there for the first night. Got to get the dogs used to the new digs. I'm excited. Time to really go through stuff and get rid of everything I don't need. I now believe that if I find something in a box that I have not thought about then it needs to go...

Anyways... I think for now I will keep this blog going. I don't even have time for this one... how am I going to start another one? LOL

Moving

So I have been super busy. I think I might have mentioned that the move-out date for the house was moved up to basically the 30th of this month. Needless to say, things have been crazy trying to pack up the apartment. We will be having a garage sale and moving over the weekend. Our first night will probably be the 29th at the new place and the last two days of October we will be making sure the old house is clean for the new owners. Oh the fun. I'm excited and nervous all at the same time. And for all the haters out there who like to talk smack about people, River is staying!!! YAY!!! He fixed up his resume, sent it out, is going on interviews, got offered a position here and is going to stay here with me and the doodles.

Not that many people come around here and read this, but I have also decided to start a blog elsewhere that I will not be advertising so that lame people cannot follow me! But if anyone would like to know it, understand it is a work in progress, I will send it to you if you ask for it! I will still be on here but probably not as much... I have not really thought through the logistics yet.

In other things, the open house for graduate school is on Friday. The application is all filled out, now I need to write a fantastic essay and have my recommendations sent along. O and all my transcripts... hmmm... I need to get on that. So maybe I will start school in January! Who knows?

Maybe I will plan an election night party so we can all get together and watch Obama win!! Oh thank something, I am tired of Mr. Negativity (McCain) and seriously how can Republicans honestly say that Palin is a good choice to take over when McCain dies, cus let us be honest - he is OLD. And at the same time it can be an apartment warming party! I'm excited to start moving in!

Now back to work...

So yeah...

The picture is of a beer offered at the Salem Brewery that River and I ate at in Salem! Thought it was fitting and quite lovely. I used to work at a restaurant where my bosses used a chalkboard to write up the weekly specials. Their work has nothing on this! It was super cool to me and I snapped a photo like a weirdo in the middle of the restaurant LOL.

So, I know that I have been a little down. I know this and I am trying extremely hard to get through it and enjoy the next few weeks like Cassie has instructed. This is not permanent and in no way is it a bad thing. At the end of the day this is probably pretty awesome for the two of us. The distance will be hard... really hard but it is what we have to do for now. He will be gone for a few months and I will be here, in an apartment like a grown up. Going to see one that looks promising tomorrow actually. We will be able to save money and pay off our debts. (freaking school loans) And I will probably start school so it isn't like I will be around very much anyways. My life will be very hectic and that is okay. I will miss him but it's not like we are breaking up... it's been over 5 years already I am sure we can make it through this like nothing. And in the mean time I will have our friends to help me get through it... man I love the Committee and all its extended members. So, I don't see this anything to do with karma or anything like that, cus in the end this is the best thing for his parents! They sold their house, they get to move to a better place and in the end River, me and our puppies will be taken care of. It can only get better. And plus, I don't think karma needs to come after us anyways! I am sad and I know there are people out there who have been visitors in my life that I'm sure are relishing in my emotional roller coaster, but that's all good. At the end of the day, I don't wish anyone that kind of pain and it is a shame that others wish it on me or even find delight in it. Living with someone for a good portion of 5 years and then having to be apart for so long is going to be a trial and a painful one but we will get through it!

So onto other things... Cassie, River and I went pumpkin picking. And wouldn't you know it my effing camera broke on Saturday night while I was taking a picture in the city. So... the pictures I have are from my phone and I will put them up later! And Cassie will send me the ones that she took and those will be included eventually. Pumpking picking was fun, the hayride, eating cider donuts, picking out fantastic pumpkins, apple cider, taking corny pictures, the farm animals... etc. Cassie loved it cus she has this deep desire to have my childhood lol. I grew up on a farm so nothing we did this weekend was new, it was just fun and brought happy memories. Cassie adored it for the excitement and new adventures. River was so-so lol. Also, got to see Uncle Wayne and Grampa briefly. We will be returning next weekend for a proper visit.

That was Sunday. Saturday night I hung with the guys in the city. We went costume shopping and out to eat. It is awesome to have such a big group of friends that can come together and just be with each other and have fun. I love them so much! Walked through the city for awhile and headed home for the excitement of Sunday.

Then, Sunday night after the pumpkins, we went to Sara Alicia's first birthday party. Jesse was kind enough to invite all of us. It was super fun, Bryan and Jesse have awesome parents. I love their mom to pieces! Sara was beautiful. Such big eyes! We all hung out at a table together, drank sangria, ate lots of food and conversed. DUH! We closed out the party all of us hanging out at that table! It was a long Sunday but wicked good stuff.

Now it is time to get down to business, find an apartment and pack our stuff up!

What a lovely day...

Oak Tree Sunset City by Ansel Adams


I enjoy Ansel Adams... took a few classes and his work always came up in the history books. And besides that I love trees. I take pictures of trees all the time... once again I will have to post some of those up as well. I always update on here when I'm at work and I have no access to my photos. Gonna have to change that!

Finished Twilight last night in my cold medicine induced haze. Went home from work and took two showers, one to unclog my ears, I did some fancy jumping up and down last night after my steam shower, but it worked! I could hear again, that was nice. Took some Benadryl, a couple Advil PM and crawled into bed. Slept for 11 hours, watched most of a Project Runway episode and slept for another 2.5 hours. Man that felt good!

So I shall be going to pick up the second book in the Twilight series tonight along with my acupuncture book. Today is looking up... I'm feeling better (just had my sinuses drained painfully by the doctor I work for) and I got some much needed sleep. I am looking forward to Sunday... PUMPKIN PICKING by grampa's farm. A hayride to the pumpkin field, then pumpkins! And many pictures to go with it! And then off to grampa's to visit. I'm excited! Hopefully the weather will hold out. We had some fantastic warm weather today in Jersey. Makes me miss California when it is this nice out!

Once again... I'm off.

A book and an update

Chill October by John Millais 1870

"So the lion fell in love with the lamb" - corny I know yet I cannot stop reading. If you don't know what I'm talking about it's Twilight the book by Stephenie Meyer. She has a lot of e's in her name. Yeah, so I held out as long as I could but I gave in to the curiosity. I understand the comparison to the Harry Potter phenomenon but in no way do these books equal each other. I'm hands down all about Harry Potter, better character development, better plot, better storyline and even though it is all about wizardry I find it more believable. Twilight jumps too far ahead at moments that it leaves me with the "yeah right" sensation. And the that's totally unbelievable feeling. Her take on vampires and the updating of the lore is interesting and I like it better than they burn up in the sun and can't control themselves. I also think this book could be longer, now you look at the book on the shelf at the bookstore and you say "wow that is a long book". Not so my friends, the font is huge. Then again I am used to reading a ton of books with small print for school, but even Harry Potter had smaller print. So, I think she could have made the print smaller and filled in some details that need to be elaborated on. I'm about halfway through and am anxious to keep going. I believe I will go buy the second book today.

I have so much to read right now... there is so much sitting on my night stand. Besides the magazines that seem to never stop arriving, I have my NAET book to finish, a book on vegetarianism and the book I need to pick up on acupuncture. So much to do!!!

I feel like crap today... my body has shut down on me with my hormone clearing. Or maybe it is just the change of weather that has me feeling like arse. I have a head cold/sinus infection and my lady of the month (which really comes every two weeks since coming off hormone treatments) is currently trying to kill me. I'm in a daze and would really like to curl up in bed with my heating pad and my doodles.

Still worried about the next few weeks, but at the end of the day what can I do? I really need to start looking for a place to stay, especially if River moves to Florida. Which in the grand scheme of things is starting to look like the best plan. Sigh. I will be super lonely with him and the doodles in Florida.

Now back to work, you can tell I'm super busy correct?

keep on, keeping on

I feel jaded, disillusioned and heartbroken. What's new right? But I am loving the cold air at night and getting to wear scarves. I am working on a Thursday 13... now all I have to do is remember to post it! I need to get on top of some of these fun themed day activities. I have so many pictures it would be nice to use some of them for fun.
I really have no desire to elaborate on how things turned out at the restaurant, except I am amused and happy to say that the new guy replacing me quit!! HAHAHA, that is fantastic.

So many things are happening in the next few weeks... it is very scary. Life will change, which is always a good thing, but the comfort zone will be in upheaval. I will be attending an open house at Pacific College for their masters program in Oriental medicine/Acupuncture. Interesting the turns that life takes. Not the plan I saw for myself but sometimes that's a good thing. Then River and I will be going to Florida with his dad to check out the area they want to move to. Then comes the BIG decisions... my heart is heavy with worry and fear. SIGH.

Keeping the theme...

I think for the rest of the month I will include a picture related to some aspect of Halloween or October. Because, to be frank, this is the BEST time of the year and I can. LOL.

Yesterday I went shopping with Cassie at Target (with the French accent please). I love the dollar bins... got myself halloween magnetic list papers, a pumpkin candle and halloween sprinkles. Fantastic! We spent something like an hour in Target just wandering and being idiots. Also got a pumpkin cake pan with 6 mini pumpkins!!! O I am too excited. I want the pumpkin cake pan from Williams Sonoma... I want to have a Halloween party. I need to get on that. This is why I want to be married on Halloween... so much fun stuff to decorate with and dressing up. HAHA... I can be a bride for Halloween. How fun! I'm like a little kid with all this stuff. I'm going everywhere the day after and buying up all the Halloween leftover specials. This is why I need to live in Salem... it's Halloween all year round... whatever my house is going to have Halloween all year round.



In other things... after much hemming and hawing I decided not to return to the restaurant. I do not need to give myself and my time to people that have no respect for me or what I did for them. And since I went to a meeting where I was made out to be the reason for everything and there was so much anger directed towards me, I feel that there is no need for me to put myself into a position that makes me more angry at the end of the night. I have to say that I feel okay about it. I love my co-workers and many of them will continue to be friends and I am extremely happy about that. In the end, I feel this is the best decision for all parties involved!

I started this blog sometime last week and got sidetracked apparently so I am just going to post it up now!

October Begins...

"October is nature's funeral month. Nature glories in death more than in life. The month of departure is more beautiful than the month of coming - October than May. Every green thin loves to die in bright colors."- Henry Ward Beecher

October has arrived. I love this month. I am not sure why I have such an attachment to this month but I am super excited it has come. I want this to be a good month cus there are some scary things going on in life right now. Things are changing all over the place and there is much to figure out. Are we staying in Jersey... or going to another state? Can't think about that right now... also can't think about the current state of my other job. Which has fallen apart and I have given my notice. And now he is spinning it that I have to do what I have to do and I'm not driven to this decision because he has failed at his job.

Anyways, yay October. The leaves will change, pumpkins and apples will be picked and Halloween will be upon us! My favorite time of the year. Every year Spring rolls around and I think maybe this is my favorite time of the year... everything is blooming, the days get warmer and the sun is shining. Well, autumn wins, I love the crisp air in the morning. I love the oranges, yellows and reds as the trees change and well pumpkins top even daffodils.

Tomorrow is the vice-presidential debate. I am really looking forward to it. I cannot wait to hear what assinine thing will come out of her mouth. Even though her voice grates on my soul to no end and makes me cringe every time I hear it... I will be front and center for tomorrow's debate.

I wish that I had enlightening things to say but I guess I am not ready to lay some things on the table or I just don't have much to say. Anyways... I might be back later... working on some stuff.